Looked at a lot of shelter video, I really think this is a real good one Thanks David.Please see more of David and Tam’s videos they are priceless… Tam also has a great little pouch that she makes. It is definitely on my want list. Please Enjoy them as much as I do.
Well I guess I made it through this Thanksgiving.., Even without my Sharon… But my Dad pulled me aside and told me this was his last Thanksgiving. So I am thankful that I was with him this year. At 85 I know he does not have many left, if any… But I did not need to hear this from him when I was already minus my most Loved one. My Dad is not my father, I lost my Father at 44 although I only knew him for 18 years, He was my Father but never my Dad, he was always to busy frequenting the bar rooms to be my Dad. The only thing he told me was that “Women are a dime a dozen”. While I was in the Corps my Mother meet my Dad, he was different I so learned to know how a Husband should treat his Wife. So to date I have known my Dad longer that I ever knew my Father for 35 years and going. I could never ask for a better person for a Dad… I only hope he is wrong about this being his last Thanksgiving.
I am thankful this Thanksgiving season for the ability to not be “thankful”… Did I confuse you? Well it has been a bad year for me. Losing someone that you love so very much is not something to be thankful for. I would have rather died a thousand deaths than to live without one moment without her. I only wish that happiness and blessings follow her, no matter what may come her way. But I still am breathing, I can only hope YHWH has a backup plan for me. Of course this is a time that I reflect on my life and restock and realign my hopes, dreams and desires and pray that I seek out YHWH’s plan for me and draw closer to him. These are the times that nobody enjoys, but like strengthening a strong blade in the fire, it tempers and refines the blade to hold a fine sharp edge.
On other notes this Veterans day I received a TLC package from my new found friends David and Tam. The cordage I am enjoying and the flat bread was consumed that very day… There is nothing like fresh flat bread. Thank you so very much. I enjoy being apart of their extended family. Blessing to you. I see a trip to Missouri coming.
As I have said before I have found friends thru You Tube and CamFrog, some ways it is nice in other ways it is not. Distance prevents one from helping each other in need. Offering moral support at best.
Of course I am thankful for my parents, I am glad to be with them. If anything happens to them my world would crumble to nothing. And for my children and grandchildren in their quest of life. I Love them dearly and hope they find success and peace in all they do. I miss them so dearly.
To my Sister and her family in Louisiana may YHWH bless them in their business and family affairs. I miss you and wish this miles between us were closer.
So I face these coming holidays hoping that depression does not drag me under, with the weight of loneliness. I truly miss the soft touch, closeness, and tenderness of a family (good and bad) during the holidays. - Andy
Just a note to self…. just “Breath”, After a 24 year life as a husband and father I find myself learning to just breath. At time I wonder why I should… why do I keep breathing… After being injured at work having surgery and now on a never ending waiting list for social security benefits, I find life is not always fair and may take you in directions you would have never thought you would down. Virtually being thrown out of society and family I am just learning to just breath.
I have in the last few months I have been looking at every aspect of my life, my thoughts , my faith, my hopes, my dreams… yes even at 53 I still have dreams to reach for.
I have found people to talk to on Camfrog and YouTube, video social scenes. I have watched hours and hours of movies and tv shows that I have missed in my life. The weather is turning to fall and winter my my shoulder definitely lets me know it every day. At time I barely can hold a cup of coffee or tea.
If any of my new friends find the way here, I will just want to say Thank you… without finding you I really think I would have left this world by now. You are my Friends and Family now. Thank you. Later….
