Well I guess I made it through this Thanksgiving.., Even without my Sharon… But my Dad pulled me aside and told me this was his last Thanksgiving. So I am thankful that I was with him this year. At 85 I know he does not have many left, if any… But I did not need to hear this from him when I was already minus my most Loved one. My Dad is not my father, I lost my Father at 44 although I only knew him for 18 years, He was my Father but never my Dad, he was always to busy frequenting the bar rooms to be my Dad. The only thing he told me was that “Women are a dime a dozen”. While I was in the Corps my Mother meet my Dad, he was different I so learned to know how a Husband should treat his Wife. So to date I have known my Dad longer that I ever knew my Father for 35 years and going. I could never ask for a better person for a Dad… I only hope he is wrong about this being his last Thanksgiving.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Holiday Notes and Thanks…
I am thankful this Thanksgiving season for the ability to not be “thankful”… Did I confuse you? Well it has been a bad year for me. Losing someone that you love so very much is not something to be thankful for. I would have rather died a thousand deaths than to live without one moment without her. I only wish that happiness and blessings follow her, no matter what may come her way. But I still am breathing, I can only hope YHWH has a backup plan for me. Of course this is a time that I reflect on my life and restock and realign my hopes, dreams and desires and pray that I seek out YHWH’s plan for me and draw closer to him. These are the times that nobody enjoys, but like strengthening a strong blade in the fire, it tempers and refines the blade to hold a fine sharp edge.
On other notes this Veterans day I received a TLC package from my new found friends David and Tam. The cordage I am enjoying and the flat bread was consumed that very day… There is nothing like fresh flat bread. Thank you so very much. I enjoy being apart of their extended family. Blessing to you. I see a trip to Missouri coming.
As I have said before I have found friends thru You Tube and CamFrog, some ways it is nice in other ways it is not. Distance prevents one from helping each other in need. Offering moral support at best.
Of course I am thankful for my parents, I am glad to be with them. If anything happens to them my world would crumble to nothing. And for my children and grandchildren in their quest of life. I Love them dearly and hope they find success and peace in all they do. I miss them so dearly.
To my Sister and her family in Louisiana may YHWH bless them in their business and family affairs. I miss you and wish this miles between us were closer.
So I face these coming holidays hoping that depression does not drag me under, with the weight of loneliness. I truly miss the soft touch, closeness, and tenderness of a family (good and bad) during the holidays. - Andy
