I am thankful this Thanksgiving season for the ability to not be “thankful”… Did I confuse you? Well it has been a bad year for me. Losing someone that you love so very much is not something to be thankful for. I would have rather died a thousand deaths than to live without one moment without her. I only wish that happiness and blessings follow her, no matter what may come her way. But I still am breathing, I can only hope YHWH has a backup plan for me. Of course this is a time that I reflect on my life and restock and realign my hopes, dreams and desires and pray that I seek out YHWH’s plan for me and draw closer to him. These are the times that nobody enjoys, but like strengthening a strong blade in the fire, it tempers and refines the blade to hold a fine sharp edge.
On other notes this Veterans day I received a TLC package from my new found friends David and Tam. The cordage I am enjoying and the flat bread was consumed that very day… There is nothing like fresh flat bread. Thank you so very much. I enjoy being apart of their extended family. Blessing to you. I see a trip to Missouri coming.
As I have said before I have found friends thru You Tube and CamFrog, some ways it is nice in other ways it is not. Distance prevents one from helping each other in need. Offering moral support at best.
Of course I am thankful for my parents, I am glad to be with them. If anything happens to them my world would crumble to nothing. And for my children and grandchildren in their quest of life. I Love them dearly and hope they find success and peace in all they do. I miss them so dearly.
To my Sister and her family in Louisiana may YHWH bless them in their business and family affairs. I miss you and wish this miles between us were closer.
So I face these coming holidays hoping that depression does not drag me under, with the weight of loneliness. I truly miss the soft touch, closeness, and tenderness of a family (good and bad) during the holidays. - Andy