Well This has been an issue now since I lost my job due to a work related injury, back in Sept 2007. Yes work took care of me till a reached a point where the attending Doctor decided I was not going to get well enough to return back to work. Here in the state of Alabama, all Workman Comp stops paying any and all benefits. Not able to get a job due to the injury, I am forced into waiting on Social Security benefits. It is now December of 2009. Of course No job, No money left, No insurance. I am living with my elder parents, trying to help them as much as I can, now they totally support me. They provide food and shelter, they certainly can not do anymore while they live off of Social Security as well.
What do I do if I become seriously ill or sick?
What kind of burden will I become?
My left leg and foot was swollen for two weeks. It is better now and now I just found a lump or swelling on the backside of my head and just above my left ear. Doctors ruled out any problems earlier while I had insurance. They said it was nothing to worry about when they thought they saw something. In fact the doctors basically said I was health has a horse. Though I still had problems they could not figure out, like syncope and high blood pressure and other things they dismiss. That was Jul/Aug of 2008. I have bad headaches off and on, but now this… I have placed an ice pack on my head hoping it might help reduce the swelling. I do not want to alarm my parents. I certainly do not want to burden them either. I am alert and can still function. So it is not an emergency, so I can not go to the hospital. I can not go to the doctors, I am sure I owe more bills that I have long forgotten about.
I am praying… taking my blood pressure meds, taking meds for my headaches, and continue to apply an ice pack, without alerting my folks. maybe its all in my head and there is nothing really wrong with me.
I will keep this blog posted on any changes. If not I was wrong. I only hope my family understand that I was tired of being a burden. My maybe Sharon got out before she had to deal with one more heartache. And maybe GOD is solving my heartbreak. I have tired to tell my daughters I love them. I always have and will even with my last breath. Life was hard and not fair, and that harden theirs hearts as well.
I served my Country and my Corps, worked all my life, tried to be a Good Son, Husband, and Father. Only to fall between the cracks of the system waiting for the benefits I earned, and failing to get them NOW when I need them. GOD Bless you all. May America climb out of the shame we have fallen into, and be as great as she once was.